I recently had a conversation with a pastor friend of mine(God bless her soul) and she really encouraged me about finding something that makes me happy, especially during my free time. Many a time we go through life as if it is a routine, we look like zombies day in, day out. You know how it goes. You wake up, shower, dress up brush your teeth, have breakfast, go to work, repeat. It is a monotonous, tiresome, boring routine. Right?
Have you ever thought of “thinking outside the box”? Being in it is suffocating. We need time to breathe- inhale and exhale, and get our minds thinking right again.
So sometime last year I was going through a difficult moment. We all have those days where you wake up on the wrong side of the bed every, literally every single day and you are there wishing ” man can this day end already”. Going to work was such a hustle, trying to get myself up to speed with life and its moments, pretending to be okay when I wasn’t. It was hard. The worst part is the fact that people can’t read through that makes it so bad.
Anyway, so my friend ad posted on her Facebook timeline asking people where they would place themselves on a scale of one to ten on the “loving themselves scale”.
I didn’t have to think about it because I placed myself at a three. That can be a dangerous place to be because in order to impart love to others you need to love yourself first. Right? And it seems I wasn’t doing much of that. I was giving out and not feeling myself up. I was just living to live. Surviving to survive.
I remember telling her about that post and how I decided that this year would be different. It had to be different. I didn’t want to go back to that misery. I hated it. It is such a bad feeling. Imagine depressing yourself every single day.
So she told me every time she just feels overwhelmed, she gives herself a break. Last week was one of those weeks for her. She actually went back to work on Wednesday this week. She gave herself time to recuperate. She definitely needed it. She happened to suggest a few things that I would do to ensure I don’t burn out, and since I discovered writing I haven’t looked back.
Let’s just say this is therapeutic. It helps me relax, calm down, refresh my mind as well. Yes, I get burnt out still but not to the point of giving up. Giving in and giving up is not my portion this year. I actually feel so re-energized, like we should start the year again.
If life is just a monotony for you, find something that will make you happy. Don’t just pass through it. Live it.
Apart from writing, adventure is my second name. ☺